Where do I belong?

I get up every morning, to search for a new day…with loads of expectations in my head. Life is not what we vision. It’s like we are living in a beautiful cage which has all the conveniences to keep you breathing but my experience says that we can purchase comfort but not satisfaction.

In this beautiful world; we wish to feel special, wish to float like a feather. We spend our whole life in becoming something which this world expects us to be. We travel places, change destinations just to find/prove ourselves. It’s all about finding our identity.

There are times when I feel so jealous of the birds. They are so free…so free to fly and cry and die when they want. I want to be like them but I don’t know the way. I still don’t know where I belong? How can I be so sure that the things happening around me are meant for me only?

Short Term memory loss is bliss at times. At least you wake up as a brand new person every time the eraser clears all your artificial memories. Just imagine the life in which all the problems/fears are temporary.

Everyone around us is not our well-wisher. People are ready to guide others even when they have no clue what they are speaking. The world appreciates us only when our act benefits them in any way. The person who wants the other to stay is too afraid to be alone and mistakenly label it LOVE.

We are living in CRUEL HEAVEN where social work is initiated after the successful completion of personal interests. We all have relatives and loads of relations with beautiful / nice people but how can we forget that we all are Individuals. It’s always I which our heart thinks; no matter how much we pray/care for others.

We all write our dreams on our heart so that our heart can remind us…guide us...and provide us the way to achieve them. Not everyone is aware of the truth that our heart is re-writable and we all need to append it at times. It’s like writing the name of your love on the wall and then painting the wall after years to write another name (This is called crushed re-writing). OR It’s like writing your fears on the wall and then painting the wall after finding the resolution (This is constructive re-writing). Our future is totally based on our Present and it’s all about making the correct choice at correct time.

We call this planet our Home but I am not ready to accept this. I would love to search for long…would love to walk some more steps…would love to meet new people…initiate new conversations…redefine the limits. I can’t give up so easily like you guys…I WOULD ONE DAY REACH THE PLACE WHERE I BELONG.

Where are you looking for the solution?

We all have problems which we think are the biggest. We are always worried about ourselves and the only thing that is on top of all our priorities is I. It’s not bad to be selfish but this world is not moving for you and with you. We are the creator / destructor of all our problems but we admit this only when all the doors are closed, when we are surrounded by darkness, when we go through our phonebook million times looking for someone to talk.

I feel my heart getting soft whenever I see someone crying. My habit of getting attached to people easily is something which is the reason of all my mood swings. No matter what I say; my expectations are always ready to raise their voice and love flying in the air like a rocket. This leads to minor heartbreaks which lead to mood swings.

I keep my eyes open and try to face whatever is coming in my way. My heart does not allow me to run from the worst situations. Winner is someone who is capable of facing and fighting his fears. It is all about fighting; winning or loosing is not in our hand.

Most of the people try to divert their mind when they are upset. They start boozing / smoking to divert their mind. I would recommend them to stay calm and in-senses when upset. It’s better to face the issue then to run from it and you might end up with a permanent solution to your problem.

There are times when we all wish to cry a little; hoping that it will make us feel good. But do you really think that it works??

We all are humans and it is in our nature to open our heart at times. Everyone is not strong to keep it all inside. We all need someone special who can listen to us, who can comfort us and act as a shoulder to rely on.

I respect this part of human nature but would advice you not to get attached to people as it is same as placing your heart on the highway. No matter how hard you try; someone is going to crush it sooner or later.

I have a solution to all those who feel the need of a special friend. Sit down and try talking to yourself when alone. Open your heart, cry, laugh, smile, giggle, play, do whatever you can do. It would not only make you feel light but would also warm your soul which is in frozen state due to unnecessary burden and sufferings.

We have so many un-answered questions in our mind which makes us feel weak. We never open our eyes to find the real solution. We all have solution to our problems. We are the question and we are the answer. Take out some time out of your busy schedule, discuss all the problems with yourself and I am sure that it would act as the ray of light in the darkness of your life.

When heart and head collides

I don’t disclose it but I suffer from constant mood swings. My heart has a habit of beating in fast-n-slow zigzag rhythm. Anything can make me feel like the worst person in the universe and suddenly something magical happens & I start flying again.

My heart still makes me feel like a little kid who is in a life imprisonment of Head. This kid begs each day for his freedom. He wants to play in the mud, laugh like a new born and scream like a crazy animal. But he can not do all these things. He is asked to stay sober, act decent and weight words before speaking. He is asked to keep his good image alive in front of this holy world.

All our past experiences related to anything and everything gets stored in your Head. Those memories and learning assist it to take wise decisions for our present and future. We all want success, money & fame and you can not deny the truth that the decisions executed with Head always leads us to success.

But then why do we feel unsatisfied after getting all the beautiful things in life? Why do we feel incomplete even when our life is swamped with success, money & fame? Why do we feel so alone even when we are surrounded by this world?

On every step we end up arguing with ourselves. Our heart and head never moves in the same direction. The things which matter a lot to our heart seems non-sense to the head and vice versa. The combination of Practical Heart and Emotional Heart is something which makes things very difficult. It’s hard to satisfy the conditions of both at the same time.

Very few people get lucky to receive second chance in life to rectify their mistakes. We always cry for things which were never ours. We associate ourselves with people and things which are not meant for us. We regret that we listened to our head when our heart was bleeding for mercy. So think twice before getting to any conclusion.

To avoid this collision; always keep a balance in all your steps / decisions. Listen to your heart and head…try to understand the point of view of both. Don’t neglect the negative and positive sides of your step. You will never regret if your decisions comes out with the mutual agreement of your heart and head.

DREAMS vs REALITY

How will you react if I say that everything you have ever known and seen was a DREAM and not a REALITY? That all the beautiful moments and memories were not true and were just a part of your Dream World. That one day you will open your eyes and see yourself lying alone on the bed of sorrow and uncertainty. The delicate scent of flowers and the cozy winter days were not genuine. That you never really enjoyed soft-ceaseless smile of new born. That the cute and unavoidable butterfly feelings in your heart and soul after kissing/touching your lover/soul mate were not real.

How many of you would like to continue living in the world which does not move according to your expectations??

How do you define EXISTENCE?? We all have different theories and explanations to define it. Is it something which is real and true…something which is universally acceptable…something which we can touch/see/feel? Do you believe in Existence of a thing only when all the above conditions are true??

If yes, then please do not flood your mind by all those justifications on Existence of GOD. For Heaven’s sake please do not initiate a debate on “We all are driven by God’s eternal powers” and “God is the power guiding/controlling all souls”.

I am sure by now most of you must be designing and developing new definitions of EXISTENCE.

Just imagine that all the things happening around you are not true. They are a part of your dream. You are sleeping and you still own the power to turn back the time and start everything from scratch. Isn’t this appealing?

We all consider our DREAM WORLD as the most beautiful place on planet. The place where we can think / do whatever we want to do. The place where we can delight ourselves, fantasize about anything and everything. It is the place where everything is in our control. We are the possessor / inventor of our Dream World.

I have experienced and seen weird and sweaty dreams which leave my heart hammering against my chest. They introduced me to the world of REALITY by telling me that I am not the master of the universe, everything is not in my control and, at times, even my body does not respond and react on my decisions.

We always wish to see things which are beautiful, things which can please our mind and satisfy our needs. Yes, you are thinking right. That’s not what we get in REAL LIFE.

But we always have our same old brand new DREAM WORLD. It is the place where we fantasize of all those things which are hard for us to achieve. Why do we feel so satisfied and happy by thinking about something which we can never get? Don’t you wonder how the thought of becoming different always excites us?

Human Life is like a vicious circle. We end up starting things from scratch and then redefine our theories towards life by saying “It’s never too late to start it” because it’s better to keep fighting then to accept your defeat.

No one wants things to go in the opposite direction of their expectations. Humans are lover of beauty and I am sorry to say that REALITY is not always beautiful.

I can only advice that one should never stop dreaming even if it is impossible/hard to convert it into reality. We sleep at least 6-8 hours everyday and I don’t think that spending 2,555 Hours (365 * 7) in your striking dream world is going to cost anything to you. Just picture how beautiful, satisfied and motivated you will feel every morning after opening your eyes and how many sleepless nights you will spend by spending your time in weaving the most attractive DREAMS with your Creative Imagination.

EXPECTATION: VICIOUS CLENCH OF PAIN & SUFFERINGS

Do you ever wonder what exactly PAIN & SUFFERINGS are??

Are they something real or something which makes us feel blue? Or something which is against our expectations and will??

I have seen people weeping and yelling that they are hurt. They start disliking all the beautiful things in life… Start blaming people for nothing.. They consider their pain as the worst thing which can happen in this world. Their heart starts pumping blood at high velocity and all they do is cry and suffer.

But do you really think that this all happens because we feel we are in pain?? Is pain the reason behind all the sleepless nights?? Is pain the reason why we just can’t say YES to things easily?? Is Pain the reason why we suddenly stop trusting people??

PAIN leads to SUFFERINGS which are hard to be undone. The discomfort that we feel is nothing but a sudden rush of feelings in our mind. These feelings are unpredicted and massive. We feel like we are gripped by pain and the direction in which we are moving would lead us to destruction.

All of the sudden we start living our life in Dual Personality. We try to be what we are not. We do all those things which were never expected from us. We keep us occupied in one or the other activity. We never admit but we try to run away from the situation. We provide groundless justifications to ourselves; hoping that it might reduce / end the pain.

I have not seen much in life but do understand that PAIN and SUFFERINGS arise when we have expectations in life. When our expectations are not met; we feel ruined.

EXPECTATION comes into picture when we want things to move the way we want them to move, when we want to see what pleases us and not what is true….when we keep our feelings and dreams on priority and forgets that the unseen future has got so many surprising turns for us...Turns which are going to take us to the better places. The place which is far away from our anticipation…which we think is hard to achieve/ find.

We should always keep high expectations with life and should always be ready to face the concealed. I believe in miracles and have seen them actually taking place when they were least expected.

Trust my words… Uncertainty and expectation are the joys of life and the Pain and sufferings are nothing but the temporary colleagues working with the firm called EXPECTATION.

Answer to all who wants to know ABOUT ME

ABOUT ME!!!!!!

Why the hell do you want to know about me??

I am not any Superman… I don’t fly…I don’t walk on water and dance in fire. I am a normal human being with loads of dreams and a soft heart. Have high expectations with life and know that what goes around comes around.

We only have one life to live…one life to live our dreams…fulfill our expectations… cry for loved 1s…make them cry for us…

I am a complicated person with different theories… I know that nothing is impossible and nothing is wrong if your heart is with you.

I am a balanced person... Know what to do...when to do...how to do and where to do and what all are the impacts of my decision / step.

I am not afraid of anyone… I use my mind and heart to take decisions… Don’t have much regrets in life and know that complains don’t provide solutions… u gotta work on it and resolve it.

There are times when I wonder why m I so different. I don’t want to be different … Just want to be happy n simple n free like all others. Is it wrong to be ME????

You can never know a person by looking at the expressions on his face or by judging his words… There is lot more to notice… What about the Unsaid words?? How can u forget them…I guess you might not have heard the beautiful and sad story of Silence…Silent pain is something which is more dangerous than …. (don’t know any incurable disease )

I have always tried staying sober and make people laugh at my pathetic talks…laugh at my face expressions…laugh at my pain…laugh at my innocence but I can not stand someone LAUGHING AT ME...MY FEELINGS....MY IDENTITY...

The thoughts of beautiful unseen future keep me awake in nights. My feelings and point of view makes me wonder how stunning every single thing in this world really is.

I love living my life by creating and following my own theories. You should always follow your instinct. Look at things the way you want to look at them… we only have one life…remember… Make sure you live it with NO REGRET ATTITUDE.

hehe…..lemme take a break and laugh at what I just wrote..I can't believe that excess flow of emotional feelings in my mind can lead me to think all these things....