Where do I belong?

I get up every morning, to search for a new day…with loads of expectations in my head. Life is not what we vision. It’s like we are living in a beautiful cage which has all the conveniences to keep you breathing but my experience says that we can purchase comfort but not satisfaction.

In this beautiful world; we wish to feel special, wish to float like a feather. We spend our whole life in becoming something which this world expects us to be. We travel places, change destinations just to find/prove ourselves. It’s all about finding our identity.

There are times when I feel so jealous of the birds. They are so free…so free to fly and cry and die when they want. I want to be like them but I don’t know the way. I still don’t know where I belong? How can I be so sure that the things happening around me are meant for me only?

Short Term memory loss is bliss at times. At least you wake up as a brand new person every time the eraser clears all your artificial memories. Just imagine the life in which all the problems/fears are temporary.

Everyone around us is not our well-wisher. People are ready to guide others even when they have no clue what they are speaking. The world appreciates us only when our act benefits them in any way. The person who wants the other to stay is too afraid to be alone and mistakenly label it LOVE.

We are living in CRUEL HEAVEN where social work is initiated after the successful completion of personal interests. We all have relatives and loads of relations with beautiful / nice people but how can we forget that we all are Individuals. It’s always I which our heart thinks; no matter how much we pray/care for others.

We all write our dreams on our heart so that our heart can remind us…guide us...and provide us the way to achieve them. Not everyone is aware of the truth that our heart is re-writable and we all need to append it at times. It’s like writing the name of your love on the wall and then painting the wall after years to write another name (This is called crushed re-writing). OR It’s like writing your fears on the wall and then painting the wall after finding the resolution (This is constructive re-writing). Our future is totally based on our Present and it’s all about making the correct choice at correct time.

We call this planet our Home but I am not ready to accept this. I would love to search for long…would love to walk some more steps…would love to meet new people…initiate new conversations…redefine the limits. I can’t give up so easily like you guys…I WOULD ONE DAY REACH THE PLACE WHERE I BELONG.

Where are you looking for the solution?

We all have problems which we think are the biggest. We are always worried about ourselves and the only thing that is on top of all our priorities is I. It’s not bad to be selfish but this world is not moving for you and with you. We are the creator / destructor of all our problems but we admit this only when all the doors are closed, when we are surrounded by darkness, when we go through our phonebook million times looking for someone to talk.

I feel my heart getting soft whenever I see someone crying. My habit of getting attached to people easily is something which is the reason of all my mood swings. No matter what I say; my expectations are always ready to raise their voice and love flying in the air like a rocket. This leads to minor heartbreaks which lead to mood swings.

I keep my eyes open and try to face whatever is coming in my way. My heart does not allow me to run from the worst situations. Winner is someone who is capable of facing and fighting his fears. It is all about fighting; winning or loosing is not in our hand.

Most of the people try to divert their mind when they are upset. They start boozing / smoking to divert their mind. I would recommend them to stay calm and in-senses when upset. It’s better to face the issue then to run from it and you might end up with a permanent solution to your problem.

There are times when we all wish to cry a little; hoping that it will make us feel good. But do you really think that it works??

We all are humans and it is in our nature to open our heart at times. Everyone is not strong to keep it all inside. We all need someone special who can listen to us, who can comfort us and act as a shoulder to rely on.

I respect this part of human nature but would advice you not to get attached to people as it is same as placing your heart on the highway. No matter how hard you try; someone is going to crush it sooner or later.

I have a solution to all those who feel the need of a special friend. Sit down and try talking to yourself when alone. Open your heart, cry, laugh, smile, giggle, play, do whatever you can do. It would not only make you feel light but would also warm your soul which is in frozen state due to unnecessary burden and sufferings.

We have so many un-answered questions in our mind which makes us feel weak. We never open our eyes to find the real solution. We all have solution to our problems. We are the question and we are the answer. Take out some time out of your busy schedule, discuss all the problems with yourself and I am sure that it would act as the ray of light in the darkness of your life.